I ❤️ this boy for all his extraordinary ways! But I’m not always open about those ways. This article (link below) highlights many of the reasons why I’m not very public about my sons autism. In recent months I have put out a few posts referring to sensory issues but never clearly stated that our beautiful boy has autism. We’ve known for over a year but I’ve felt it in my heart for much longer than that.
People always have preconceptions of what autism looks like. There are two ends of the spectrum that people like to put autistic people in & those two extremes seem to be all people see. This article explains why a linear approach to viewing autism is such a narrow view of the issue & it’s why I’m posting today.
I speak about Sebs diagnosis on a day to day basis with some people, as in day to day life I need that openness but social media has felt frightening as it opens Seb up to so many peoples preconceptions. Not that anyone would be unkind, just that they might put him in a certain bracket and assume they know what his & our life might look like.
Seb is high functioning & many people assume that means he’s super intelligent without any hardships or difficulties-this isn’t the situation at all. He is clever and there are some things he is very gifted at, but there are also many areas that are a struggle for him. He falls into all four quadrants of sensory issues, which is unusual. He gets stressed by language used & how people explain things. He feels misunderstood a lot of the time because he can’t always make himself understood. He told me recently what he loves most about God is that he never has to explain himself to Him. We can’t even take him to supermarkets until he has learned more tools & skills to help him manage the situation. Yet at school he has learned the ability to hide his struggles so no one seems to really notice. He does this a lot in social situations as well as best he can, but it’s harder for him then and when he’s at home he lets go of everything he’s been carrying and bottling up. He needs to be able to do this but the outcome can be very distressing and painful for us all....read more in comments
Most of us are used to our cups being filled with a half fat,double shot cappuccino,or a soy latte with cinnamon, or my personal favourite,a matcha latte. But the bible tells us that we all have a cup that God gives us.It’s a cup that overflows with blesssings. However,sometimes it doesn’t feel like what God has given us put in our cup is blessings.Sometimes our cups feel heavy & weighty, too hard to bear.Jesus felt this on the cross as He took on our sin, as He carried our enormous, never ending supply of shame. Whilst His humanness made Him call out to God for help & mercy, He still asked for Gods will to be done. He knew that cup had to be carried.This is because He knew that in the cup were blessings. Not blessings for Jesus. What He went through was unimaginable.The pain,the shame; you just have to watch The Passion of the Christ to get an idea. No, not for Jesus.The blessings in Jesus’ cup were for us. His death & resurrection brought us the blessings of the hope of new life forever. He died that we might live & be blessed by His sacrifice. On that day on the cross God didn’t take Jesus’ cup from Him when He cried out these words because it was necessary for Jesus to carry that cup & push through until it was over, when the blessings could then come. Do you ever ask yourself why God doesn’t take your cup? Do you ever get mad that if there is a God, how could He let your situation continue? Sometimes it’s necessary for us to carry the cup in order that the blessings will come. The difference for us is that Jesus had to do it alone in order that the punishment of man would be complete, but we don’t. We have Jesus, to walk this path with us, to carry the load, to come alongside & to lead the way whilst protecting from the rear, all at the same time. I heard Pastor Rich Wilkerson preach recently: “your burden is your blessing”. So know today that whilst your cup may feel heavy & it not be taken from you, it is carried with you & the blessings that God wants to pour out on your life will come. Jesus came out of the other side, and so can you, with Him carrying the load #mycupoverflows #soylatte #richwilkersonjr #carrytheload #sharetheload #onthecross